Change is good.

It occurred to me today that I care far too much what people think of me, and it's ruining my life. I know I shouldn't care what other people think because y'know it's my life- I can do what I want. But I do care. Even walking down the street I get anxious about what people will think if they see me, I guess it's related to being self conscious. Thing is; I never used to be like this when I was younger, I blame puberty xD! I remember the days when life was care free, the good old days.

I realise most of my blogs lately have been depressing and/or describing stuff, but it's just the stuff I think about sometimes and I've got no other way to explain it to myself than writing it down. Makes everything easier. So yeah, I've got 3 goals for this year:
a) Lose some weight. One of the reasons I'm so conscious of my looks. I'm not fat, just have a little bit of 'extra baggage' which I want gone. Gone I tell you! :D

b) Care less what people think of me. Will probably relate to a).

c) Be happy. Be me. No matter what anybody else thinks, cos at the end of the day what kind of life is it if you live to please other people? I know it sounds selfish but sometimes you have to put yourself first. I've watched my mum help people all of her life, and what does she have to show for it? Fibromyalgia, Rheumatoid Arthritis and a life full of tablets. Where's karma now, eh?

The next few months for me are gonna be hard, what with GCSE's as well as some other personal things. But I'm gonna get through them. Because life is a journey, there's ups and there's downs, and sometimes it spins you round by the tip of your toes, but things always get better. No matter how hard things are, they WILL always get better.

Love,

Tyler.