Thursday, 6 May 2010

I Am Not A Robot.

So I realise I haven't posted a blog in a while, and I'm sorry.
I really am. Life has been eh at the moment. 90% of the time I'm just faking a smile to get through the day because I'm really down at the moment, and I don't think that life is going to get better. But it will. And I know that, because I've seen the ups and downs of life in other people, and I've learned from it. I've just got to be strong, get over my exams, say a few goodbyes and live on. Because at the end of the day life is about living for yourself. You can't live for somebody else. Sometimes you have to do something selfish, even though that goes against everything I do. Sometimes you have to do something for yourself, and ignore what other people think. You just have to go for it. Shoot for the stars, and you'll get there.
The only person keeping me going at the moment is Samantha. I love her to bits and she's the best friend I could ever ask for. I know I never cry but I think I will when she leaves. I'ma miss her so much♥ I can talk to her about anything and I know that, even if she jokes about it, she's not going to judge me for it. And I love her for that. She's so down to earth and selfless.
I want my life to change. But in order for that to happen I have to make it happen. I have to, because if I keep living in the way that I am I'm just going to get depressed and do something stupid.
I just want to say thankyou to all of my 4 followers. Although it isn't a lot, I still Thank You for following me and for actually reading this. Thank you.
Tyler x.

P.S. I promise I will try to blog at least twice a week.

Sunday, 25 April 2010

Then We Started Kissing Like This.

Let me start with an epic LOL:

This blog isn't going to run along the lines of my usual blogs because well, I'm in a random mood :D!
I've been using Dailybooth for the past couple of days and I've been chatting to a few people and I've gotten to know some really nice new friends (:
Check me out if you want?

One thing I do want to talk about though is conflict of opinion. Don't you hate it when one of your friends has a different opinion on something and it causes an argument? I do. I don't know why but it just upsets me. Well anyway, that's all I have to say today, other than that it's End Malaria day! So do something, I did a Dailybooth photo for the other day so I'm sure you can think of something :)

Saturday, 17 April 2010

Change is good.

It occurred to me today that I care far too much what people think of me, and it's ruining my life. I know I shouldn't care what other people think because y'know it's my life- I can do what I want. But I do care. Even walking down the street I get anxious about what people will think if they see me, I guess it's related to being self conscious. Thing is; I never used to be like this when I was younger, I blame puberty xD! I remember the days when life was care free, the good old days.

I realise most of my blogs lately have been depressing and/or describing stuff, but it's just the stuff I think about sometimes and I've got no other way to explain it to myself than writing it down. Makes everything easier. So yeah, I've got 3 goals for this year:
a) Lose some weight. One of the reasons I'm so conscious of my looks. I'm not fat, just have a little bit of 'extra baggage' which I want gone. Gone I tell you! :D
b) Care less what people think of me. Will probably relate to a).
c) Be happy. Be me. No matter what anybody else thinks, cos at the end of the day what kind of life is it if you live to please other people? I know it sounds selfish but sometimes you have to put yourself first. I've watched my mum help people all of her life, and what does she have to show for it? Fibromyalgia, Rheumatoid Arthritis and a life full of tablets. Where's karma now, eh?

The next few months for me are gonna be hard, what with GCSE's as well as some other personal things. But I'm gonna get through them. Because life is a journey, there's ups and there's downs, and sometimes it spins you round by the tip of your toes, but things always get better. No matter how hard things are, they WILL always get better.

Thursday, 15 April 2010

'Give me what I want'

Yup , second Kids in Glass Houses lyrics as my title.
I won't be making a blog tomorrow as I'm out to meet my friend and then off to a party (: Not that anyone really reads this but y'know, thought I'd write it down for my own reference. This is sort of like the diary I never kept.
But I just got to thinking, everything in this world is based around material possessions. If you don't have any, people look down on you as if you're worth nothing. If you have too many then people think that you're some sort of god. But in the end material possessions don't get you anywhere. Sure, you can live a nice life with lots of expensive champaign and expensive lobster, but you can't take that money with you. At the end of the day you're the same as everyone else, and we shouldn't be judged for what we do or don't have. All that matters in life is that you love and are loved, as long as you have family and friends then you'll be able to survive anything.
Special shout out to my bestfriend in the world- Samantha. Wouldn't be where I am now if it wasn't for her, and we've only known each other for a little over a year and we know everything about one another. Also wouldn't be who I was if it wasn't for my mum- I thank you for making me the caring and loving person I am today.

Consider yourself one of my bestfriends, Consider yourself one of my enemies♪

That song makes so much sense to me right now. It pretty much describes how my life is going. And it's kind of true don't you think? When somebodies so close to you that they know everything about you, it just takes one whisper to bring your whole world crushing down around you. Of course, I hope that my bestfriends would never do that to me and vise versa.
So, the holidays are coming to a close and it's almost time to go back to school. I have my only party of the holidays tomorrow; never have been an 'alcoholic' like some of my friends, lol. I had my college interview, and got in. So that's another bonus. Not it's time to sort everything out in my life, for better or for worse. So yeah, not a very long blog but I was being hassled by Jack to make one so I thought I'd quickly type down some stuff (:
Until tomorrow.

Wednesday, 14 April 2010


Me and my mum had a conversation this morning about prejudice and how it could easily be stopped. If schools introduced children to controversial issues at a young age, wouldn't it solve all the problems with parents raising their children with their own prejudice. If children understood these things maybe they'd be less against them. Let's take Homosexuality for example. I don't think it's ever been mentioned in school, both primary and secondary. Luckily I've grown up around it, with a mum, a sister, and 3 best-friends that are lesbians I think I'm pretty accepting. But that's because my mum raised me to respect everyone, regardless of ethnicity, religion, background, sexuality etc. If children are being raised in a home where the parents have a prejudice against one of these things, then it's bound to have some sort of impact on the child.
This is why I think that education fails. Sure they teach us to count, to read and write, to do some basic scientific stuff, but in the end is that really what we need? We as people need to respect everyone and accept them for who they are. When it all boils down to it, we are ALL human.